Day Twenty One

Something you wish you could forget

Something you wish you could forget this is troubling.

Usually if its worth forgetting I forget it!

I cant forget this moment

I have certain moments were i remember things vividly, the emotions and surroundings. I remember the night when Conner Reed passed away

http://notsobrightandshiny.blogspot.com/2010/06/conner-reed.html I remember reading this blog and just the tears wouldn't stop i was sad for his family his brothers his mother; the loss of a child is unimaginable to me. LOVE LOVE LOVE

R.I.P Conner you are missed by many.

Day twenty

A place you want to travel to
Australia!!!!!

Sorry I can't post a picture I'm blogging from my cell phone.

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day nineteen

A picture of you when you were little

day eighteen

A picture of your biggest insecurity

this i hard, I'm not sure what I'm insecure about. It changes depending on my mood. There are times where I'm insecure about my feeding tube. Especially when its bathing suit time and I'm not in the comfort of my own home.

But there are times where i could care less.

Day Seventeen

A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

It doesn't say rather its a good impact or bad impact.

I'm not insulin dependant....yet. I know my CFRD is a big issue and i know that's a lot of the reason I don't feel as good as i should. Damn you CFRD!

Day Sixteen

Day 16

A picture of someone who inspires you.

I'm lucky enough to have met this person and I'm even luckier to have called this person a friend

Sheri Mount. She was my fairy god mother. I was diagnosed at 10 and I met Sheri when I was 14 or so. Immediately I loved her with her big hugs and smiles that lit up the room. She was the person who for many years put on an amazing benefit for cystic fibrosis called sizzlin country. This was her passion she had no connection with CF until she met a little boy with CF and fell in love with him and made it her priority to fight for a cure. I spent many years participating in this amazing charity being a face to this disease, I stood up there year after year with many others but slowly CF took them all. Sizzlin Country was an event not to be missed, the event did more then just entertain it was a sign of hope that we were going to make this disease a thing of the past so many people famous people cared about the disease I was fighting. It was an amazing feeling and I'm honored to have been in the presence of Sheri.

Sheri lost her fight to pulmonary fibrosis June 17 2008. That was the day we lost an angel who lived among us, she went back home. I miss her and she has inspired me to keep fighting and if I can be half as charitable as she was then that's good enough for me. Miss you Sheri xoxox

Day fourteen and fifteen

someone you could never imagine your life without

Aaron J. Benson

He is my best friend. I couldn't imagine not having a brother but i couldn't imagine not having an amazing supportive brother who sticks by my side through a lot. He is a devoted brother. He is loving and caring but all in his own way. He is shy but once you know him he never shuts up.

I'm lucky to have grown up with my best friend.

Day Fifteen

A picture of something you want to do before you die

Id like to own a house someday. Id like to just have my own space to decorate and make my own craft room. I don't care if its small and if it's a work in progress that would be okay with me.

Day Twelve

A band or artist you love

I love Paramore.

They are a good mix of my emotions.

I like to listen to them there old and new stuff.

day twelve

Something you love. I love my babies. They are my sunshine. I'd do any thing for them they are such amazing kids

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Day Eleven

Picture of something you hate.Llamas.

Enough said.

Day Ten

A person you do the silliest things with
Well today i ate Aaron's fake birthday cake with sprinkles...She has me do some odd and silly things...but all she has to say is...."Aunt Jess...I love you so0o0o0o much" and lets face it everyone id do anything for her

Auntie Jess loves you pretty girl

Day Nine

The person who has gotten you through the most

Brandy, your the best and with out you i would not be where I'am today!

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Day Eight

A picture that makes you laugh

This was a picture from a vacation we took to Canada and New England.

This picture captures my Mom and Brothers relationship. They are silly but together through it all. I laugh every time because we were making fun of Aaron because since he got his gold tooth he hasn't quit smiling and it was just a funny moment.

This is another good one! All my doggies in mom and dads bed.

Day Seven

Yes, i know i skipped day 6 but ill be honest with you...i didn't like it anyways.

So Day seven. A picture of your most treasured item....

Hummmm I'm not sure if i treasure an item...i enjoy many things but i enjoy my Bently

He is the best gift i have ever gotten.

He is funny...adorable to me.

He isn't the most lovable dog but when he lets you love him it's those moments that are special

He is so bossy its unbelievable

He likes to sit at the dinner table like that's where he belongs

He makes me laugh so hard when he runs super fast but his butt is practically dragging on the

ground. I laugh so hard i cant breathe

So...Mr. Bently i love you and even though you like everyone better then me, your still my favorite.

Day Five

A picture of your favorite memory

well, lets just scratch this post up as a fail.

I don't have a single favorite memory.

I have so many i cant even explain them all to you and i definitely don't have pictures for every moment. I usually don't have time to run and grab a camera. I remember the picture just fine in my mind and in my heart.

But because this is a picture challenge ill show one of my favorite pictures

This picture was taken the weekend i just got home after a hospital stay. When I'm admitted I always like to plan a breaking out party...for when I'm free of the hospital. I remember sending out the texts saying i wanted a party and a party is what i got!! I love moments like this where I'm surrounded by the people who love me and support me.

So in the picture is my cousin Angel and I. I'm doing Iv's out by the pool...sure beats a hospital room in my book!!

So i have so many great memories and even though most of them are random and unusual Its those moments i treasure the most.

Day Four

A picture of your night

Well my nights are usually the same...Dinner..Tv...Treatments and More TV

Tonight was no exception; other then the three additions. But in Pajamas and blankets we cuddled and watched Tv.

so picture this

But with more blankets and of course Mr. Bently on the other couch he looks like this....

Day three

A picture of the cast from your favorite show

I'm not sure i have a single favorite show. Spending lots of time doing treatments and everything else CF throws at you i find myself in front of the tube more often then not. Right now my favorite Show is Teen Mom 2.

I know its lame, but i really enjoy watching these Moms handle there babies and life. Mostly i like to watch the drama. Man these Moms ha

ve a hard life. Some of the cast members i like better then others and some i just can't stand. My favorite is Leah. She has twins. can you imagine 2 twins at 16?! You can tell though she is a good mom and it tugs at my heart to see her going through some health issues with one of her twins. I wont lie, it has brought me to tears. I tune in Tuesday nights and watch my show. Check it out sometime let me know what you think!!

Here is Leah and her daughters Ali and Aleeah

Day Two

A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile

Matthew and I in High School

Matthew and I met in elementary school, we grew up together very close...in elementary school we were both very tiny so naturally we stuck together.

In middle school...we still were smaller then everyone else but we were still best friends

Our relationship really took off when we were in high School he transferred from a big school to my school which was a school of 50. Immediately we were close and we became thick as thieves. Everyone always thought we would end up together but we had such a great friendship we both agreed friends is where the money is.

So to Mattie...my best friend who i adore. I love you so very much and i know you and i don't talk as much as we wish but you are forever in my heart and I'm lucky to have a friend like you who has stood by my side through ALOT Matthew and Jessica Best friends FOREVER

Day One

Day one

1. My middle name is Renae. That's why my blog URL is 65 roses (cystic fibrosis) 4 JRB (Jessica Renae Benson)

2. Usually 96% of the time all I wear is jeans

3. I'm like a stalker in the sense I know a lot about you guys but you know very little about me. And yes I talk about you like I know you personally. 

4. I sleep with a stuff moose named cookie. Cookie claims to be both male and female it usually depends on how I feel and address him/her

5. I'm 24 years old and I do not have my license.

6. I bought my first car in August 2010 even though I do not have my license

7. I hate apple sauce even though it has nothing to do with apple sauce and enzymes because I wasn't diagnosed with CF until I was ten

8. I have an odd and some might even say an unhealthy love for hello kitty.

9. When I was younger I always wanted to be a writer, but because of my poor english and grammar I gave that idea up

10. I hate llamas. They scare the shit out of me. And Ostriches too. Oh man they freak me out

11. When I was in 1st grade my teacher use to call me brown eyes 

12. I wish I was a ballerina. But my mom said no.

13. I look a lot like my Mom ;But have more of my Dads personality but lord help us because I got my mothers attitude 

14. If I had half the talent my brother has I would be doing big things in my life

15. I give the best hugs.