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Friday, April 22, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
clarity
I have brief moments of clarity. I see things from a different light. My life isn't what I thought it would be. 24 and living is something I never thought would happen. I have always been a dreamer I'm one of the people who feel there life should be more like a music video...dancing and singing and shoot matching outfits with sequences why not right....dream big. But why just dream big live big too. I try to do that live big but my definition of living big is probably a lot different then yours. I live big by loving big. I hug I kiss I love. I try to be open to others. So my question to you is do you do the same? Love big? Dream big? Live big?
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Why are you so mean
One thing I struggle with is people being mean to me..it happens more often then you would think. But I struggle with the feeling its because of my disease. I once had someone tell me they were tired of tip toeing around me trying not to upset me because I'm sick . This hurts me in every aspect it's hard enough living with this disease but then feeling like your "friends" cant be real with you cause you are sick. What a shitty feeling.the last thing I ever want to do is make someone be fake with me cause they are worried about upsetting me. It's hard enough watching my family suffer through this damn disease but then to have a friend make it obvious I'm making there life hard because I'm sick makes me just want to cry. I never think my needs are more important then others...they are different but I'm still a person with feelings. The most hurtful thing is when someone attacks or judges me because of my cf...it's not something I chose to live with and if I could change it I would. People like that hurt my heart. It makes me just want to cry. I'm not much of a cryer but it helps me feel better. Sometimes it makes me wonder why do they have to be so mean?
Sorry for the spelling and grammar...blogging from the cell phone again.
Sorry for the spelling and grammar...blogging from the cell phone again.
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