bed time

I'm laying in bed listening to my feeding machine the first time In months and I feel ashamed I feel defeated I feel relief. As much as I hate it it has the potential to help me do something I can't do. It doesn't seem fair to hate on it. Secretly I'd like to throw it against the wall. Well its not a secret anymore. We have a love hate relationship. (Sigh) my life is getting weirder. The beauties of cf