Dear Donor

Dear Donor,

 I don’t know anything about you and I hope one day that will change and ill be able to put a face to the person who saved my life. See I was close to death before you made the selfless decision to donate what you could no longer use. You gave me the ability to breathe on my own only days after receiving my double lung transplant on 2/2/2020. A day I’m sure your family looks back on and feels sadness my family will celebrate the second chance I got and we will celebrate a selfless act. I don’t remember much as the days leading up to the surgery I was very out of it. I don’t remember getting the call or the emotions that go with it and if truth be told I’m glad I don’t remember because just listening to the stories my family told me makes me get a lump in my throat. I don’t remember having any white light moments but I know if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be writing this letter. After my surgery and waking up knowing you gave the ultimate gift I couldn’t help but find myself crying randomly knowing this was a huge decision on your part and wondering am I worthy of such a gift. Would I go on to touch peoples lives and make organ donation a topic in ever conversation spreading awareness everywhere I went? Would I find the strength to become this person who worked out and hiked so much putting these lungs to work. Truth is its only been 2 months and only time will tell who and what I become but whatever it is I’am grateful. Grateful for the opportunity to live and breathe and to be a wife. To be a sister and a daughter and a dog mom. I don’t know how long these lungs will keep me going because with transplant you are living on borrowed time but I can tell you for as long as cam breathing I will always have a grateful heart to the person who gave the ultimate gift to a stranger.