I'm laying in bed it's 10 till 2am and I'm awake despite my best efforts to sleep. I start to drift into that place where I think to much and over analyze the simple things. Just the normal stuff to be thinking about at 2am. I'll be turning 26 this year I'll also be getting married and hopefully moving into a home of my own. But I worry about my health and how no matter how much I plan it ultimately makes the decision if those things are really going to happen. I can live with disappointment but disappointing others is much harder on my heart.
I'm feeling weak again like I just need motivation but everywhere I look I can't find it. I need to step things up this year and take things seriously but when you struggle to breathe everything seems impossible.
So my goals for 2013
* exercise to built strength and stamina and a few muscles wouldn't hurt either
*gain weight but good weight
* sleep less but take more naps after I have accomplished any of the above
* dance classes for the wedding
* be more aware of others and there issues and struggles
Most importantly make memories that are worth remembering