Happy 40th birthday Aaron

I may not be the best sister in the world, but don't for one second think I wouldn't burn this world and everyone in it for you!

I’d burn every motherfucker if it meant saving you. Giving you any thing you needed or even for your peace. 

I remember on one of our cruises we were young. Just kids. Babies really now looking back on everything. I was scared and I looked to you. I needed you and you were there. Taking over the situation and handling it like the big brother I needed in that moment. Just looking back on that I should have known that in that single action it sent off a reaction that would carry us to where we are now. You taking care of me when I need you the most. Stepping up to a job you never signed on for. It breaks my heart that we ever had to lace up our boots to go to war against something we could never win. And honestly the chances of us winning really depends on what you consider a win. 

It’s easy and in this moment to think back to why did this have to happen to me?To us? How did we get so unlucky to have a disease with no cure  come crashing into our lives. And in a matter of years things get so off track 

My Aaron. You are officially in your 40s. The older we get the better we get. That’s just facts. I can say with 100% certainty you are someone that others wish they had in their lives. Everyday you make me proud. You make us all proud. You are the big brother to so many. And little brother to everyone else. The son they wish they had or just someone in their corner that they appreciate and know for certain you have their back.  Iv seen you come along ways in 40 years. From bottles and toys to bigger toys and becoming exactly who you supposed to be. I got a front row seat and man is that an honor. I got to be your sidekick and still am. But I wouldn’t trade that for anything. 

Now you have a few different things happening in your life, they sit with us. They laugh with us. And they are loved by us. But the best part is seeing them with you being loved. Uncle Aaron is in high demand these days. Man does this fit you. You do so well. You are a comfort to them. You look at your niece but you are locked in to her eyes and her heart. You’re seeing her emotions. What’s important to her. What her school is doing. You care. It shows on her face when she hugs you. 

I don’t ever want their be a moment where you wonder, did my sister love me?  If you ever have to ask you that then I failed. 

And yes it broke my heart not being with you to celebrate. It was hard. Everything I wen’t through with transplant my motivation was always the things I would be a part of. The wedding. The house. The holidays and also the mile stone birthdays. So yah when I need to protect my health and that interferes with your 40th birthday I’m sure you can imagine the emotionally hard place it put me in. 

Aaron. when I look ahead and I see your fourties’ I see amazing things. the biggest thing is all the love you will be surrounded with. 

Be safe.