Thursday, August 12, 2010

5 years

"Im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here" - yellow card

5 years ago today Maggie Marie Mackey lost her life to Cystic Fibrosis.
The same damn thing im fighting every single day.
Maggie was a dear friend of mine and ever since she has past i havn't been the same. I think part of me went with her in a weird way. I never knew anyone who died from CF. When she died i realized it was possible that at any time that could be me, because of her everyone i love knows how much i love them, i don't hold back and not say that one little thing i wanted to say.

Maggie, im sure your having one hell of a time. some times some days i dont know if there really is a heaven. Thats my own issues but i know in my heart where ever you are your having fun smiling and breathing easy. 5 years ago today i lost my friend but heaven got an angel.


Anonymous said...

Jess, that was a very beautiful blog post. Maggie loved you very much. I know how difficult it is, to see a friend with the same disease die. I experienced it with Maggie. She lost 2 friends from CF. Amanda when Maggie was I think about 10 and Mathew, when Maggie was 13. It does have an effect on you. But I hope you have used it as a lesson, to try to take better care of yourself. You know, I sit here and think all the time maybe if...but I know it's not healthy for me. However, I know the one thing Maggie could've done differently, was exercise on a regular basis. So, remember that, please, exercise exercise exercise....keep those lungs healthy. Sorry to be lecturing, just hoping I can pass on some advice by experience here. Well, I love you girl, very much and I worry about you! So please, if you ever need anything let me know!! Oh and when I ever DO get that money sent to you, I decided I want you to just use it on you instead. It's been so long since great strides now...I'm awful with remembering things, really bad!!! Well keep your chin up and a smile on your face. Maggie will be guiding you....

Jessx0x0 said...

maggie has guided me in so many ways especially right now...i think i got what she is trying to tell me and i promise maggie ill do what i can. Shelly iam exercising and trying to take care of myself i appreciate you caring enough to lecture me. i love you too :)


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